LILAC OBSESSION | STYLE

Wednesday, 27 January 2016


My sense of style and identity is something I've always struggled with. I've been through every phase under the sun - tomboy, scene, emo, chav, Jack Wills*, hippie, grunge...you name it, I've probably tried to be it. A constant has always been a rock and roll kinda vibe - I've always liked darker patterns and clothes. This past winter/autumn I've almost been exclusively dressing in black and white, and I love it. I love minimalism, with a Parisian/rock chic edge to it - give me all the distressed black denim, white shirts, Chelsea boots & pleather. I also love silver hardware at the moment too - gold is nice, but I'm kinda over it. However, recently I've added a new colour to the mix, and I just wanted to post about it because I'm finally happy in (most) of my outfits!

MAKEUP HAUL - JANUARY 2016

Tuesday, 26 January 2016


It's been a long time since I've posted really splurged on a big drugstore haul. When I first started getting into makeup, I remember every time I got paid, I'd go down to Boots and blow it all on pretty coloured lipsticks and new foundations. That's definitely a thing of the past, as now I have my student loan, and feel like a millionaire (for the first few weeks) and prefer to spend my money on high end products instead - they just feel so luxe, and look really good on my Instagram feed. However, I really felt like going down to Superdrug and testing out some new stuff - I wanted to try the Mary-Lou Manizer from the Balm, and buy some new eyelashes. Of course, I got sucked into their fancy new sparkly counters, and ended up with a whole basketful of random makeup I definitely didn't need. But whatever...at least I get to tell you all about it!

IT'S OKAY TO GET HELP | MENTAL HEALTH

Friday, 8 January 2016


A lot people in the bloggersphere at the moment, suffer with some kind of mental health disorder, whether it be anxiety, depression, or something other. In fact, a lot of people in our generation, studies have shown, suffer with such disorders because of the changing/evolution of our environment, in comparison to that of our parents and grandparents. I'm one of these people, and as such, I know there is a huge stigma around the whole topic, and I think it's important that we all come together to try and end that. That's why one of the organisations I'll be featuring today is Time To Change because it's fantastic and we should all get involved. Mostly today though, I'm going to be looking at the difference between help and support, how to get help, what it entails, and why it's okay to get it. 

JANUARY TBR

Tuesday, 5 January 2016


With 2015 behind us, the whole bloggersphere is talking about what's to come in the new year, and resolutions. One resolution I've seen a lot this year is reading more, which is something I love to hear, and it's something I'm partaking in myself. When I was younger, I used to read what seems like millions of books - it's all I'd do. Even now, the underneath of my mum's double bed is full of my old books that I just refuse to get rid of, as I might want to read them again at some point. But somewhere along the way, little readaholic me got lost, probably in favour of Facebook. It's a real shame, but I think most of us are guilty of putting aside books for other forms of entertainment, especially now as we're well into the digital age. However, hopefully we'll all be able to rekindle the flame this year and start reading again; after all, it's now easier than ever with the introduction of ebooks and free audio books. In an effort to get myself to stick to it, I'm going to start doing monthly TBR's (to be read's), tri-monthly wrap ups (mini reviews of the books I have read) and then bog standard reviews of the books I've really loved, or loathed. So to kick things off, here's what I plan to read this month!


I got this book as a Christmas present from my friend Char, and I was really excited to read it. I'm actually almost finished with this book because it's just so interesting. It's marketed as a thriller, but it's not your traditional 'thriller'. In fact, when I picked it up and read the blurb, I had literally no clue what the book was about - but I assumed a mutant little girl with special powers. I was extremely wrong. It's actually somewhat of a zombie apocalypse book, using the same fungus infection The Last of Us uses. But it's not your typical zombie read - I don't want to give too much away, but I definitely think this would appeal to a much larger audience than your average zombie novel. It's not horrifically gory or obscene. It's full of twists and turns, and intelligent plotlines that require thought. One of the characters is a young girl, infected with the fungus, who in theory should be a flesh eating monster - but she's not (quite). I'll leave you with that, but if you're in the market for a new read, definitely go for this. 


Another Christmas gift! I've actually read this before - back when it was a freebie in cereal packets. Those were the days. But I much prefer this copy, and me and my boyfriend are going to revisit it by reading it together. And by together, I mean I'll read it to him, whilst he plays my PS3. He's 22, just in case you were wondering. 
No but seriously, it sounds a bit mushy, and a little odd, but reading to your partner and having them read to you is actually super fun and cute. 


Another one I've technically read...and posted on here. But I also got the sequel for Christmas, and I want to read this one again before I read that. Honestly half my time is spent rereading novels so I can continue the saga because I always leave it too long and forget what happens. Anyone else have that problem?


I actually picked this book up in October, and began reading it, but never got into it. I'm not sure why - it's everything I like. YA fantasy, badass heroine. I've heard a lot of YouTubers talking about it, which is why I bought it, and I do like it. I just haven't been able to read it. Probably because I just can't read anything these days. But 2016 is the time for change! You might well see this book in every TBR I ever write, but hopefully I'll manage to get through it. Let me know if you've read it - you can spur me on and tell me how great it is.


That's all I'm planning to read this month! What about you?

- Charlie CP xx





WHAT'S IN MY MAKEUP BAG - 2016

Saturday, 2 January 2016


To kick off this year I thought I'd show you what's in my makeup bag! Usually it's a lot more full of random lipsticks and whatnot, but these are the basics I use pretty much everyday. The bag itself is a really nice mesh one from ASOS, which was about £8.99. It does have a tendency to get a bit dirty though - but what makeup bags don't? However hard you try, makeup always gets dirty from other makeup. I don't even know how. Maybe it's just me. It's probably just me.


Anyway...here's a little overview of the few 'essentials' I can't leave the house without. I usually take a powder brush and a beauty blender too, just in case. I didn't picture those though because they were horrifically dirty.


The largest thing in my makeup bag is probably the Charlotte Tilbury Bronze & Glow, which everyone in the entire beauty bloggersphere has heard of. I got this for my birthday in October and I use the 'sculpt' colour everyday without fail, usually with a Zoeva luxe cheek brush. However, I've recently decided I'm not a fan of the highlight - it just doesn't seem to show up on my skin. Maybe it's because it has kind of an orangey tone to it, and there doesn't seem to be much of a shimmer in it. So, I'm shopping about for a new one, if anyone has any recommendations!


Another staple piece is the Laura Mercier translucent powder. I absolutely adore this - it gives such a nice silky finish to my face. The only downside is it's a bit hard to apply, in the sense that getting it out of the tub is harder than usual with powders, but it's totally worth getting your black skinny jeans a little patchy for.

To the right of that are these adorable nail polish remover pads from Topshop for £2.50. These are really good at removing nail varnish, and they don't smell too bad - they have more of a jasmine scent. I definitely recommend picking these up for on the go, they're usually by the tills or where they keep the candy! 

Beneath both is my YSL Touche √ąclat which I use to highlight under my eyes on most days. It's not a concealer though, so I have to use something else beneath it! Usually that will be my Collection Lasting Perfection, but I don't keep that in my bag as it's just really messy. I don't know how it happens but it's always caked around the lid!


I usually have Mac's Creme Cup or Modesty in my makeup bag, but not always, so I took them out for this post. The only constant is this Nars lipgloss, which is the definition of 'your lips but better'. Unfortunately, it doesn't have the shade name written on it and I've thrown away the box, but it's a beautiful baby pink - pretty hard to miss!


Eyelash glue! I usually have like 3 or 5 in my bag because I have so many lashes. I wear Eylure lashes everyday so this is essential for me, especially when I'm out and about, as I'm always paranoid my lashes will fall off (they never do).

Above it is a Diorshow Iconic Curl sample mascara, which I really like. However, I don't intend on buying the full version as a mascara is a mascara in my humble opinion. Plus, I use falsies on a daily basis, so I don't need to invest much in a mascara. If you love it though, you should definitely try out this one!

To the right is my holy grail eyeliner - Rimmel Glam Eyes. I wear winged liner most days, as I feel like I have small little piggy eyes without it. The applicator is a little brush which is quite thin so it gives a really precise line, it's jet black, and stays put for hours. Basically everything I want in an eyeliner. 


I've been using this L'oreal Paris Infallible Mattifying Primer for months now, and whilst I do like it, I don't love it. It does make a massive difference to my base, but it's not quite up there as the best primer in my opinion. I can't find the best primer. That's now one of my new 2016 goals - I need a great primer!!

The L'oreal Brow Artist pencil is a new addition - I like this for precision, but I use it only as a supplement, to my Sleek brow kit in medium brown. I fill my eyebrows in with that powder, then define and darken with the Brow Artist. I'm really not happy with my eyebrows either, so there's another 2016 goals - get good brows!


Finally, my foundation. I use Nars Sheer Glow in Mont Blanc, but I will admit, it's a little orange for me. I love the formula and it's a great foundation so I would always recommend it. I'm going to try the Body Shop lightening drops at some point to see how they work out, as I can't justify buying this foundation a shade lighter just yet! 

So, that's all that's in my makeup bag. Do we have any products in common? 

- Charlie CP xx

2015 - A YEAR IN REVIEW

Friday, 1 January 2016


2015 has, not gonna lie, probably been one of my best and worst years yet. But it's over now, and I thought, why not reflect in a blog post? So whilst I pick apart my year, try to weed out the good parts to take into 2016 with me and get a bit personal, I hope you enjoy reading something a little different to my usual bumbling over makeup.

J A N U A R Y - F E B R U A R Y

These two months are long forgotten - I was enduring the end of an abusive relationship and nothing really good happened until I broke it off at the end of February. I don't want to darken anyone's mood so I won't go into the details, but if you're suffering/have suffered from anything similar, feel free to slide into my DMs or drop me an email if you want to chat. I know I definitely felt such a huge weight lifted off my shoulders in January when I finally told people what had been going on.

M A R C H 

On a much lighter note, this was one of the better months of the year for me. I was fresh out of a nasty relationship, and free to see my friends all the time and do whatever I wanted. I had a lot of fun just regaining my old self confidence and realising I was actually a bad bitch. Also, I started my blog! I can't believe it was that long ago - probably because I regularly posted for like two months and then started sporadically disappearing...but hey ho, I'm here now. If you want a little laugh, here's my first post - complete with dodgy photography and tiny images.


A P R I L 

Another month, full of basically the same as March, The highlight was probably visiting my best friend Char in Brighton. I did a good ol' photo post on it, which you can see right here. Shout out to Char, who is my literal rock. Hopefully one day she will actually start a blog too!

M A Y 

As if I'm writing about May already?! This was a harder month, due to something we'd loosely define as romance, but also exams were looming. I think the run up to exams is much scarier than the actual exams. I can definitely tell you I did no revision in May for my June exams. I was at the end of sixth form, which was a bad experience for me in general, and I just had no motivation. Spoiler alert: I made it out okay.

J U N E 

This month was a hot blur. I think it was really good, because it was sunny and lovely. I had A2 exams, all of which were 9ams, so I got up at 4am everyday and revised right before the exam. I remember thinking they went well. I also started seeing Ben, my lovely boyfriend, in this month. The first time we went out was on the 11th, and we went to this huge park near us. It was so adorable, we just sat on a little blanket in the middle chatting for the afternoon. It was the day of my English Lit exam and I was absolutely exhausted from being up since 4am, but it was really lovely all the same.


J U L Y 

I started this month in Prague, which is my favourite city to date. I went with Char, to celebrate the end of my exams, and just because we both wanted to travel. It was also super cheap. This was seriously probably my favourite experience of 2015 - it was truly amazing just to be abroad, in such a hot beautiful city with my best friend. I would love to go back every year, but I have the rest of the world to explore. I have a full post about it here.

Ben and me at mini golf
A U G U S T 

This month I spent doing lovely summery things with Ben and my friends, and just having a really good time. I got my A level results - ABB - which I was really disappointed with, but I got into my uni of choice to study history, so I couldn't really knock it. I also made the decision that I wanted to move into uni halls, rather than stay at home (I live like 10 minutes away), so I applied for those. 

My mum and me in Paris
S E P T E M B E R 

I went to Paris with Mum in early September, which was really lovely. We saw all the main sights, and went up the Eiffel Tower. Notre Dame was definitely my favourite though. It was so breathtaking. Then, the rest of September was just a waiting game...I didn't get to move into uni until the 21st. I was really disappointed with my halls, as they were the only ones off campus, and seemed to be the ugliest ones too. But when I got there, it wasn't that bad, and by the end of the month I knew it was the best decision ever. Unlike most halls, our flats are smaller (5 per) and we only have 24 flats across two buildings. Plus, because we're all off campus, there's a strong sense of unity, and we've kind of created a little community. 

#squadgoals
O C T O B E R 

My birthday! The 1st was my birthday, and I was thrown the most smashing party by the girls in the flat upstairs, who are now my best friends. The rest of the month was spent getting into uni life. I joined the stunt cheer team, which I absolutely love. I missed a lot of lectures and seminars, which I definitely wouldn't recommend, but hopefully for my second semester I'll have learnt my lesson. The month ended on a very low low, but perked up again by beginning of November.

Me, Natalie, Paula (and Jess in spirit)


N O V E M B E R 

Not much happened here - more uni, more parties, more drinking, more spending my loan on makeup and clothes. But on the 15th, Ben and I finally got together officially, and we've basically just spent the rest of the year being really loved up.


Paula, the love of my life

D E C E M B E R

A bittersweet month. On the one hand, it's been amazing, because of Christmas, and Ben and I went on an amazing trip to London, where was saw the Book of Mormon and went to Winter Wonderland. But it's also been really shitty - I've seen a lot of very low lows this month. Plus, Paula, one of my best friends, moved back to America. She was an exchange student in our building, who was literally the sweetest, funniest, perfect little ray of sunshine. It's going to be so weird without her!!



 I'm determined that now it's 2016, I'm not going to let the winter blues I've been experiencing follow me here. I can't wait to see what 2016 has in store for me. Hopefully I can actually stick to my resolutions too, which are as follows:

  • Drink more water
  • Say yes more + take care of my mental health
  • Be fit and join the gym
  • Have a more minimalist lifestyle (and wardrobe)
  • Blog consistently 
I hope you've all had a swell 2015, and I'd love to hear your resolutions!


- Charlie CP xx